can't stop

can't stop changing

always making more

i hate you for cutting me down

 

cant stop

cant stop flying

shapeshifting

like chaos

don't you dare cut me down

 

so filthy

so filthy and angled up in me

set like stone

i hate you for washing me out

 

don't you

try to

wash me

away

cut me

away

ill burn

a way

 

cant stop

cant stop burning

naked now

i thank you for lighting this fire in me

 

cant stop searing

cant stop bubbling

deep inside

my mind

 

here i come

out of nowhere

whats this thing i seek?

 

your mutilation and torment

to breath beside a freak

if i knew why i feel this way

i doubt i would turn away

 

i'm thinking, and wondering

and trying to figure out

what the hell is wrong with me

 

here it comes again

screams from somewhere

black thoughts blinded to me

somehow i know this bitter anger

creeping through like a wicked sneak

slashing and biting like savage play

just another undeniable hunger

somehow needed for the way

down

 

i'm understanding

and starting to figure out

what the hell has come to me

 

there it

goes

into something

black lighting

has sent my mind

into

another realm

dancing through

is this true?

what is what?

what is where?

 

i cannot say

my head is useless here

i love to drift here anyway

 

i

don't get it yet

ill keep pushing

deeper

push past it all

even me

get out of my fucking head

 

 

black center growing

surrounded by storm clouds

amidst a plain of white

empty of energy

can i really see anything?

 

its so empty here

let the universe come and flood this place

these eyes shimmer into another

 

wash away the dirt

and the pain and the shame

and let something new take over

 

now i look closer

black whole burning in the middle

with a malicious spark

joy times anger times purity times suffering

seven layers burnt off a strip at a time

something cuts throught the clouds

peircing them with silver light

red lighting teases through the white

let the anger come and flood this place

crack this eye back in two

i don't want to see anything

 

wash away the hurt

and the fear and the shame

and let theses eyes shimmer into a different element

 

sucked into the black hole

the quicksilver clouds cutting into me

the white spaces suffocating

in a forest of red lighting

ripping through my eyes

let the anger come and drown

my eyes

 

can i really see?

 

 

 

 

 

 

Stifling silence

nonsensical jabbering

moist and hideous sounds surround me in this crushing

soundless tomb

 

a wave of loud emotions spill
forth onto me

as i open my eyes

and scream back in confusion

what am i?

 

stifling noise

nonsense voice

connected to the music flowing gently down to me

this is where my ears linger

this beauiful emotive melody

 

the sound changes

feeding off the feeling

of the meanings behind these sounds

lets begin

to tempt

to scream in rage

 

what the hell am i?

silence 10 miles wide

dark and molded inside

worn eroded pride

i won't let it slide

take this anger inside

and let the music eaters

swallow all the emotion in the room

 

i'll never stifle myself

from me

 

 

 

i like how these meaningless meanings

pour forth

from my blackened mouth

like rivers of saliva

made of the dead

 

crash forth in waves

wash away the little scum left

covering everything in hot freeflowing tar

 

everything seems covered in pestilence

rise up as your savior and lead you to delverence

 

i guess you could say

i had a dream today

that tasted like gold

and colder than cold

 

it tastes so sour, bitter and burnt

utter a few chants to spread the hurt

 

can i get a drop of color

on the tip of my tongue

lick and coat my mouth all over

coat my language with drawn blades

 

tastes just like

fresh blood

biting copper

tastes so red

 

fuck you

buddy

take this

broken dream

and bury it deep

where no one can see

 

 

 

 

biting down

snapping at the worm

hiding in the apple of loss

too close to slicing through slippery skin

through the bitter blood

so white

 

giant gleaming cleavers

shining dagger tearing

massive boulders crushing down

on all your flesh and bone

so yellow

 

a chip in the tooth for every blade i bite down on

in a way these missing peices make me who i am

the chip on my shoulder leading me onward

to bring about their own broken teeth

 

nighttime dims, cracking my jaw

stiffling my aching maw

i still can crush you

rip you apart

in these jagged shards of my teeth

as they break away

inside you

 

blood pouring from this

shattered line of shining killers

so red

 

i can taste your sickness

coming down over mine

a fragile for a witness

my tastebuds sliding down that line

chemical dependancy

taste so

sweetly

let me taste your bud of a flower

 

i can taste your innocense

in every moment of our trance

shifting together in jest

articulating the sound of our souls

 

i can taste your fear

in the drop running down your glowing gravity wings

makes it only sweeter

all light is gone

consumed by hunger

fill you with the retched stench

of a dead soul trapped

stagnating

so freshly

i'll feed off your inability

to reject

 

its huting its aching

its bleeding from screaming

tearing sounds

left to your imagination

 

hunched over in the darkness

like cripple without a light to lead his way

in harmony with the bluish water

cold white angel

what the hell is wrong with me?

 

so much for pain

stemming from my center

something clawing its way deeper hiding from the searching eye

 

clutching my heart by the ropes around it

trying to tear it out

violent angel

burn me alive

what the hell is wrong with me?

 

if i could i would

distance and sever myself from me

still i wonder if i should

drowning in misery seems to have its uses

 

twisted claws

slicing through my breath

faded angel

the fire dies down

what the hell is wrong with me?

 

streched over ancient bones

covered in cuts and burns

slowly coming away bit by bit

leaving trails off rot everywhere i pass by

 

i feel so dirty

not even the water cleans me well enough

 

cut it off

tear it off

not enough

burn it off

 

peeling off of a stony heart

covered in tar

ready to be lit aflame

just dancing in the waves

 

i feel so dirty

black and dark

jump in the tar

light me up like a star

can come clean

 

frame ripped free from my

flimsy casing

tearing away from whats left of my searing flesh

covered in burning blood

slowly slipping from reality

leaving a trail of smoke and ashes

 

i feel so ugly

jump into the sun

to burn pure